Monday, March 31, 2008
~ Updates... ~
11:09:00 pm
Yesterday was the first 'packing' case that I had done in my current ward... Well, which was good, since I haven't 'packed' anyone yet since I left my old ward in October... *Hehe*... But the worse part, it was a Coroner's case... So, to date, this is my 3rd Coroner's case... *Tsk tsk*...
Anyway, emotionally, I'm still feeling the pain and hurt but my tear ducts have been ineffective since 2 days... What can I do? Only time will heal all wounds...
But I am really thankful to all those who has stood by me throughout my emotional period... Thank you...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, March 28, 2008
~ It's The End... ~
1:08:00 pm
We have finally come to the end of the line...
It is painful, it hurts a lot...
But we both felt that it was better to end things now, than to get back together again and only hurt ourselves and make it even worse...
I've had the best 2 years of my life and I will never ever had any regrets that I've ever walked this path with him...
Life has to move on... And I will... I will try to stop all my tears from falling anymore... But I guess I'll just need a little more time... Afterall, 2 years is not a short period...
Life will not just end there, even though our relationship have ended... In fact, it's a new beginning to something new...
And to him, thank you for all the wonderful and sweet memories... I will cherish them deep in my heart and mind... Thank you for everything...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
~ Lost... ~
8:53:00 pm
I am feeling so lost... I really don't know what to do...
But I'm just hopeful that things will turn out for the better...
I'd rather stay positive than to be pessimistic...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Monday, March 17, 2008
~ Been & Back ~
11:01:00 pm
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Finally, after 22 years, I've stepped into the neighbouring country's capital city... Yeah, this was my first time... But it definitely wouldn't be the last...
My trip there was simply refreshing... Of course, there weren't much differences compared to Singapore, expect for the SUPER HIGH twin skyscrapers which made me felt so giddy after looking up for a minute...
The refreshing part was having the opportunity to get away from work and also, refraining myself from thinking too much and getting depressed for nothing... But well, the refraining part didn't really work much cuz the thought of him simply didn't leave my mind...
But on the other hand, the best part of all was, of course, SHOPPING!! From the real goods to the imitation ones... Well, I'm definitely going there again!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, March 14, 2008
~ Updates ~
12:25:00 pm
Yay!! I'm very close to finish my assignment now...
Which means that I can go to KL tomorrow without feeling any worry that I have not yet finished with my assignment... *Hehe*...
Anyway, talking about KL, I wonder if the Causeway or Second Link will be SUPER-JAMMED tomorrow... And hopefully, it wouldn't rain also!! *Prays hard*...
My moods have been pretty erratic these days with me feeling very pissed off... But then again, it's all because of his actions... Anyway, I shan't think much... I will enjoy myself tomorrow!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Thursday, March 06, 2008
~ In My Mellow State of Mind ~
8:50:00 pm
The weather has been really chilly these days... And so was my mood... *Hah*... Well, I kinda regret publishing my previous entry... But somehow, I'm not gonna delete it... Because whatever I wrote came right from my heart... All my anger and frustrations...
For now, my mood has gotten better after a really long chat that I had with my
'Dr Love' a few days back... And now, I'm learning to be more independent, trying to be less reliant to keep me going on... And I am convinced that there are other things that will keep me going on...
So, who is this particular
'Dr Love'?? Well, it will forever remain a secret within myself...
Anyway, I realised that I haven't been talking much about my work and my workplace... Well, for a few reasons, I haven't been very much disgruntled over my work lately... And when I really am, it's really to the extreme...
And so, there have a very difficult relative that most of us have been so stressed about... So much so that this particular relative has even shot up a complaint to the PRS (Patient Relation Services)... When a complaint is being shot up all the way to PRS, this means that the complaint is already to the maximum... Honestly, I haven't been so stressed up working here in my current ward... And furthermore, I was the only staff nurse who was assigned to the team today and unfortunately for me, this patient was under my care...
And still about work, we received a VIP visitor today in the ward... So, who is this VIP visitor? It was none other than Singapore's First Lady, Mrs Nathan... But since I was super busy, I couldn't even care a hood... *Heh*...
Anyway, I really feel like doing something to the extreme... Like bungee jumping or skydiving!! ;) Does anyone feel like doing the same too? Then, we can go together!! *Hehe*...
BUNGEE JUMPING!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
~ Anger Management ~
8:41:00 pm
I just realised how much I missed my good ol' days during my polytechnic times... My friends and classmates... Fione, Germac, Evelyn, Flora, Kewei, Jeraldine, Xiufen, etc... I truly missed those times... Even though I still get to see some of them occasionally, nothing beats the feelings of being together at school, enjoying ourselves silly and getting stressed out for our examinations and presentations...
Just the thought of it made me realised how rigid and selfish I've been towards my dearest... He's been spending lots of time with his colleagues lately due to his courses... And I've tried to 'control' him by getting him not to mix around with his colleagues as much... But I didn't realised that this was one of his chances to enjoy his 'studying' phase... Once he starts going back to his station to work fully, he will never get to enjoy all of these again...
But what can I say? I am a very jealous person... Honestly, I didn't realised that I AM a jealous person, not only until recently... *Heh*... And that's not all... He has more female colleagues than males... And, and, and... They always go out together as a group (with other guys around, of course) on weekends... So tell me, how can I don't feel jealous at all?? *Hmmpph*...
Not just that, on the day I had my presentation for my assignment, I asked my dear for his help to be our cameraman... Well, he couldn't make it since his class ended at 6pm... Okay, fair enough... I wasn't angry about that... But guess what he did instead?? He went to VIVOCITY with his friends... OMG!! I was just so pissed off!! I was angry not because he did not come, but because he chose to go out with his friends instead of going home!! And on the day I asked him for his help!!
Okay okay... I'm just behaving as a jealous b***h... *Heh*... Sorry, I'm just ventilating my anger out...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Sunday, March 02, 2008
~ More Updates... ~
8:20:00 pm
Honestly, I am still feeling quite upset over the matter that had happened recently... I am trying my best though, not to bear any grudges... Well, just in case one day, I'll be connected with her through a certain kind of bond... By then, IF it should happen, I wouldn't want to make things difficult for everyone involved...
Therefore, the only way is to forgive and let go... *Exhale in deeply and exhale out*...
Anyway, I've been quite busy lately... Having to attend lectures and all... Even having to prepare for a presentation and facilitate a group discussion... And now, there's also an impending assignment which will due in 2 weeks' time...
Now now... That doesn't sound VERY good for me, you know... Well, cuz I'll be heading across the Causeway 2 days before my assignment is due... And that means that I would have to, by right, start my assignment NOW!!
And talking about my presentation... Well, I had a pretty fun time doing my presentation... Well, that is because, the topic that we did was solely our decision and we could practically choose to present any topic we wanted!
So, what I did was to teach my learners how to do sign language... Yup, SIGN LANGUAGE!! After so long of not practising how to sign, I was THIS close to forget how to sign my alphabets! *Haha*... But well, everything went quite smoothly... Except for the fact that my hands were all over the place, literally... *Hehe*... What I really meant was that I tend to make lots of gestures and hand movements which was pretty distracting to my learners... But what can I say? I'm teaching sign language!! *Hehe*...
My Sign Language Board!
Anyway, Dear and I, we went to catch this local movie yesterday...
It's a nice movie to me... Afterall, for a local movie, it's great enough...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Saturday, March 01, 2008
~ Sad Emotion... ~
10:55:00 pm
*Sigh*... I just feel kinda sad... Well, I just can't help it, really...
I just feel that she is not ready to accept me into the family yet... I've been going out with her son for close to 2 years and I don't even know any single one of the family members... Well, not that I'm desperate to get into the family or what... But out of courtesy, I just feel that it's better for me to know them, for them to be aware who her son is going out with...
So I guess, the time is just not right yet... And now, I don't even know when the time will be right... =(
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
